Good Foods/Bad Foods

One of the hardest aspects of my recovery has been getting over the labeling of foods as either bad or good. Come on it's how we were raised since we were in diapers. Save your dessert until after your supper. Don't eat that ice cream until you finish your vegetables. All foods have been categorized in some random fucking hierarchy of goodness. If we ate "good food "we were good. If we ate "bad foods" we were then of course bad. I began as early as the age of 10 feeling bad or good depending on the food I consumed that day.  Every night when I put my head on the pillow, I would sum up my entire day as either a success or a failure depending on what I ate and how much I ate of it. When beginning counseling for my eating disorder, one of the first things I had to do was to allow myself to eat what ever I wanted without any judgement. I spent the first few months eating so much cake and chocolate that I thought I was going to turn into a great big piece of chocolate wipe out cake. Two years later... food doesn't call me from the cabinet anymore and I can eat a few bites of a dessert and leave the remainder. That is PROGRESS.  I know what you are thinking... but are you at a healthy weight now?Well no, I am not. That will come in time. Everyday I work very hard choosing foods that make my body feel good , food that sounds good to me and tastes good to me and I do this without judgement(most times).